Part 2: my "comeback" story
Posted: November 7th, 2023, 6:49 pm
Part 1 is somewhere deep in this forum for those not familiar with my story, i wanted to post part 2 to keep you up to date. Part 3 which will be the conclusion I will combine all parts into one post so its in order and easy to read in one place.
Back in July I met with stk president to discuss my "comeback" situation. He said he will discuss with his counselors and think about having a membership council for me, he was thinking that i may need to be rebaptized, I agree, I am more then happy to start the process.
For the past 13 months that I have returned to church I am not partaking the sacrament (under bishops direction) but lately the past two sundays I felt the need to reach out and partake as the deacon passes by me.
This past Saturday (after waiting more then 3 months) I finally got a text from Stk presidents secretary asking if I could meet with stk president and another brother next saturday for a ministering visit. It wasnt what I was hoping for, I was hoping for the membership council so that I can get back on the road to repentance and full fellowship.
Sunday was fast sunday so I started a fast sunday morning to break it monday morning. Sunday night as I lay in my bed to sleep I get a real scary dream, a voice yelling at me in gibberish language and a slideshow of scary images racing across my mind, none of it made sense but I immediately wake up and realize it was an attack from a demon. Satan is not happy with my return to church.
Monday morning (yesterday) I break my fast. I was kind of disappointed in my efforts during the fast as I was side tracked with worldly things, It was not a very spiritual fast and I thought it was fruitless. After eating my meal (a green smoothie) I get ready for work and hit the road connecting my phone to the car radio to listen to some youtube podcasts. One of my favorite topics "christian religion" show up so I click on a video titled "Protestant Pastor becomes catholic." About 10 mins into that podcast the former Protestant pastor talks about how his wife who was catholic by birth but not active her entire life wanted to return to church. She feared the confession but knew she had to do it. She met with the priest for 25 mins, there was some laughing and a lot of crying. He told her "keep doing what your are doing, God loves you more then you ever know, be patient and something is right around the corner." Immediately I felt the spirit warm my heart, its the exact words God wanted me to hear.
I arrive at work and tried to figure out why would stk pres want to do a meaningless ministering visit? We already had two casual meetings, why a third time?
I look back at the text from stk pres secretary and was wondering who the brother was to accompany stk pres in our visit because I didnt recognize the name. I look him up and because we have stk conference this week it is the visiting area seventy. OMG!
Back in July I met with stk president to discuss my "comeback" situation. He said he will discuss with his counselors and think about having a membership council for me, he was thinking that i may need to be rebaptized, I agree, I am more then happy to start the process.
For the past 13 months that I have returned to church I am not partaking the sacrament (under bishops direction) but lately the past two sundays I felt the need to reach out and partake as the deacon passes by me.
This past Saturday (after waiting more then 3 months) I finally got a text from Stk presidents secretary asking if I could meet with stk president and another brother next saturday for a ministering visit. It wasnt what I was hoping for, I was hoping for the membership council so that I can get back on the road to repentance and full fellowship.
Sunday was fast sunday so I started a fast sunday morning to break it monday morning. Sunday night as I lay in my bed to sleep I get a real scary dream, a voice yelling at me in gibberish language and a slideshow of scary images racing across my mind, none of it made sense but I immediately wake up and realize it was an attack from a demon. Satan is not happy with my return to church.
Monday morning (yesterday) I break my fast. I was kind of disappointed in my efforts during the fast as I was side tracked with worldly things, It was not a very spiritual fast and I thought it was fruitless. After eating my meal (a green smoothie) I get ready for work and hit the road connecting my phone to the car radio to listen to some youtube podcasts. One of my favorite topics "christian religion" show up so I click on a video titled "Protestant Pastor becomes catholic." About 10 mins into that podcast the former Protestant pastor talks about how his wife who was catholic by birth but not active her entire life wanted to return to church. She feared the confession but knew she had to do it. She met with the priest for 25 mins, there was some laughing and a lot of crying. He told her "keep doing what your are doing, God loves you more then you ever know, be patient and something is right around the corner." Immediately I felt the spirit warm my heart, its the exact words God wanted me to hear.
I arrive at work and tried to figure out why would stk pres want to do a meaningless ministering visit? We already had two casual meetings, why a third time?
I look back at the text from stk pres secretary and was wondering who the brother was to accompany stk pres in our visit because I didnt recognize the name. I look him up and because we have stk conference this week it is the visiting area seventy. OMG!