Who is the Servant?
Posted: September 23rd, 2023, 11:25 am
I am the Servant. I do not call myself this because I feel like it, or because of small insignificant emotions that make me wonder about myself and tell me that I'm someone special. This is not that kind of situation. I am a Servant. This means I am like a prophet. I have seen God personally tell me this. I am not claiming that I saw God when I just had an interesting idea pop into my head and I followed it. I have literally seen Him. The reason I write this is to help people understand what kind of person I am. I am going to share a little bit about myself on this post so that people can understand who I am. After the post I will have other links to other posts and so this will have all of the new posts links in them. So if you try to find something this is the main post and then you can find the other posts links in this conversation.
Any comments on this forum from me before I was told I was a Servant is not something that is accurate. I was doing my best but I couldn't actually tell you about certain areas and I relied on scriptures and my own opinion. I did try my best always to follow something that said "try your best to answer but don't worry about it, just answer well." And that's what I did. However, now that I am with God, and He speaks to me, I actually can tell you the actual answer to many of life's questions. I am just starting out and I will let you know when I can answer most questions about life. However, I don't know much but God said to me with a physical voice "this is what you need to write, I will tell you what to write word for word," and this is a word for word post from God Himself. I don't lie about my experience.
I know people will have questions eventually. Like "is God going to come and burn the earth?" and other questions I do know the answer to, but most questions I don't know answers to at this point because I am being helped by God right now to be prepared to start receiving answers.
I do not know enough to answer your questions yet. However, that will come.
I can however share basics that I understand and I will post several posts and link them into this post.
The Davidic Servant is not the role I'm claiming. This role does not exist. However, most people will argue about that because it's in scriptures. However, I need to say one thing about scriptures, you do not know who wrote these scriptures. You do not. However, you would not read them if you knew who wrote them. Scriptures have been edited and even written in many chapters by wicked men who wish to harm people in the end.
That doesn't make sense if you feel the spirit with the words of the scriptures. However, tiny insignificant emotions and even bigger emotions are not an example of the spirit. Sometimes you do feel truth and I won't deny that however, people do not have discernment. Discernment means this if you can tell me if you know the truth fully that something in the scriptures is true or not. Such as can you tell me if this is true or not "Grace keeps you from going to Hell" or "works and grace keep you from Hell," or even "repent in a temple that the Servant builds and you will be in Heaven." Which one is true? You cannot tell me you know the real answer because you have discernment. Discernment is different than knowing right from wrong sometimes. If you knew all the right and wrong answers in life you would be a prophet. You don't even know if your neighbor is good or bad but many claim to say they know the truth through their emotions.
If you know the difference between those questions, why? Is it because you had God Himself come to you and tell you the answer? or did someone say that it was true to you and you felt small emotions or large emotions about the answer? If it's the second one, you do not have discernment like a prophet. This is true. I am not saying this to make people wonder about me, I am saying this because people don't have discernment actually. I thought they did, but God told me what was going on. He said this is happening "people claim to know the truth when they haven't even had a dream, vision, or even visitation from God Himself and they claim to know what is true or not. They claim to know that there is some sort of magical ability they have where they can tell if someone is bad, or something is bad, or even doctrine that is bad. Most people argue on points of doctrine because they do not have discernment. They also do not have a holy spirit guiding them. This is true. If the holy spirit was guiding all people in their journey to Heaven then why are there so many different opinions? Opinions sound good look good and feel good sometimes and this doesn't mean this is the holy spirit. The holy spirit if people had it there would be no questions about life, doctrine or anything in general. There would be no fighting about doctrinal issues. People claim they have this spirit when they don't. But they don't understand why there is not holy ghost. It's because the body prompts you. God created your body. Your body is prompting you to do things. Sometimes it's random, sometimes it's interesting, and other times it's spiritual. This is because the body is to help you repent. When people have random ideas or even spiritual ideas, it's not from God Himself, it's from yourself. You do not have spiritual promptings from God. Why? Because he needs you to repent. If he said anything to you you would not repent. He cannot talk to you. People do not know this about life. Because once in a while they do have a holy spirit experience. They feel prompted to help someone and it works somehow. This is not the holy spirit. If you had one it would be like this "I feel prompted to say these words, and these things to this specific person right now, but also I know their future, I know their past, I know who they are and I understand what would happen if I said something the wrong way in this moment. I know who they are and what they've done. I know all about this person." This is not what happens when people help others, they feel prompted to say certain things because they feel it in their heart, but they don't feel it as if a Holy Spirit was helping.
Your promptings sometimes don't make sense, and it's not because you are not understanding the holy spirit. It's because your body prompts you with random things sometimes. "Go clean this part of the house," and that is all it says to you sometimes. And it doesn't make sense that a Holy Spirit is teaching you this. If you think you have a holy ghost, ask him right now to tell you the actual answer to "what is my life going to be like in 5 years?" and if you get a vague answer it's obviously not the spirit, but if you do not get any answer at all, this is obviously not the holy spirit. I would guide people on this earth always if I had the choice. You do not get guidance when you want for various reasons, but I do not share those reasons at this point in this message. The holy ghost is not a person in the God Head. This is true. He is not even someone that exists. The reason they wrote this in the bible is to make people have power over one another. If you said "I know that this is true, the holy ghost told me so." then you can say whatever you want and be right. However, people don't know about this for a reason. They wrote some parts so well that you would not wonder about the bible or other scriptures. Joseph Smith Jr. is someone who wrote scriptures, but the scriptures he wrote were different. They edited everything. Someone evil did.
Promptings from the Holy Ghost are actually promptings from your body that God created for you to have. That is why some promptings are random, and others are not answered very clearly. Sometimes you do get some ideas that are fantastic and the body can do this. This is true. If you have incredible emotions about something, this can happen with the body. It doesn't feel like you for a reason. It's not. However, the body prompts you because God blessed you.
When someone claims to know the spirit, and know that there is a holy ghost, this is only because they have feelings, not visions, not dreams, not God telling them personally that there is a holy ghost. If there was a holy ghost and everyone had him, you would never wonder what to do in life, who people really are, and who you really are. If you have wondered these questions you do no have a holy spirit guiding you "what is life like for those who go to Hell?"
"what is life like for those who go to Heaven?"
"what is life like for those who are really evil like Hitler in Hell?"
"What is life like for those who were more normal in Hell?"
I know the answers to these questions, not because of some feeling I had but because of a voice that God has been speaking with this entire time with me.
People do not know what happens in Hell for a reason. They also do not know truth about it in various areas. The doctrine in the LDS church about the people who die and go to Hell is not true. This church has so much incorrect doctrine it will be surprising. If someone knows the scriptures very well and argues about this it's not because they have a holy spirit guiding them, it's an opinion guiding them.
If there is a Servant or Prophet like person then all of these questions and questions like "why am I here?" "what is the point of life sometimes?" or even "what is the meaning of life?" these questions are answered with prophets and servants. Servants are not people who are "serving people". Servants are people like prophets who go around teaching people the truth. I am a Servant.
The opinions of others are not accurate usually, however, there can be accurate opinion. Opinion however is not truth from God.
People do not understand that they have only opinions. However, that will be discussed in a different post.
Now that I have discussed the fact that there is not discernment, I will speak about being a Servant.
People might claim they have a holy spirit and discernment about me. They might say "well that's not in the scriptures," or even "you're wrong I know that is not true somehow," and those comments are opinions. I am a Servant. I am not a fake or a liar but I'm also not deceived.
Now that I've commented all that I can about that area, I will say this much about who I am.
I am a Servant.
This is true.
What will happen in the future with me will be revealed a little. I will have angels to come and visit me, I will see them not just hear them, I will even take pictures at this point to prove it, but honestly my miracles will also prove that I am a Servant. I will have miracles happen in my life and I will show people the power God can give me. My angels will walk with me everywhere I go. I won't be without an angel ever. They will teach me, guide me and protect me. I will not have any problems with my church in general, but if people want to attack my church they won't be able to.
I also want to say that I have had miracles already. I can sit down when I want. Usually I have to stand and pace all day long without any sitting. This happened due to a devil and medicine that others forced me on. This medicine was for mental issues. I will discuss how I am not an insane person. However, first off I will share my miracles.
Usually I pace for hours and hours and hours everyday all day long because the medicine they gave me because I believed in God and a Devil and also because of spiritual attacks. I believed in this and told the wrong person. However, I was never a danger and never a problem. After they gave me the medicine the Devil cursed it so badly that it made me pace all day long. This medicine was terrible. I would pace so often I cried in my head to God "Please save me! I can't stop walking! I can't sit down when I want!" after a few years it's torture. You get to pace all day and then somehow miraculously go to sleep and then wake up and then pace. If I had not been blessed by God I would not have been able to sleep. However, what happened was this, I couldn't stop pacing one day and I said "I have to sit down, I HAVE TO!" and I sat down for 3 seconds and got up, and then sat back down again and got up and sat again, and got up. I couldn't control anything about my body because the Devil said "No, you are standing up! You cannot sit down!" and so I stood and I fought the Devil about this because I had to sit. So I tried over and over and over again to sit. But the Devil controlled my body so badly that I couldn't sit even for 5 forced minutes. I was not allowed to sit. My feet have sharp pain in them sometimes because of all of the standing I had to do.
I sat down one day and said to myself "finally, I get to sit!" and this was so relieving that I bawled my eyes out for over 1 hour. This was the day that God came and sat me down and I could sit for an hour. He came and sat me down and said "You're safe now, the Devil is gone. I saved you. Sit so that you feel better." and I cried out "help help help help help" the moment I stood up again because of how torturous this situation was. God helped me sit again.
Now that I have been healed fully, I can sit for as long as possible. All day even. I usually cannot sit even 5 minutes without extreme pain mentally. So when you cannot ever sit down for 10 minutes after work standing all day, you go nuts. You cannot stand that long and not have a break, and then you cannot stand that long and not be tortured after a while.
That is what happened. I will share only one other miracle.
My brain was completely destroyed by the Devil. He said this to me "I will destroy your brain so you cannot think anymore." This is frightening to think about but it did happen. My brain could not understand 2+2 at all. My ability to hear people and understand them when they spoke to me was gone. I watched people talk to each other and I never understood what they were saying. I went into mental retardation because of the Devil. I couldn't even understand anything that I was saying to others, sometimes it came out wrong and other times I was blessed by God to just be able to say something to someone so they didn't worry about me in the wrong way. When people know this about my story they will wonder how I started to write things again. So for quite some time God has been healing my mind. He has been healing it so that I can function again. I am not writing this post. God is telling me what to write and what words to say specifically to this audience. I am no longer mentally retarded. I was so mentally retarded that I couldn't even function in daily life. I couldn't take a shower, I couldn't figure out how to dress myself, I couldn't figure out what to do in social situations at all. God came and when he healed my ability to sit down he came and healed my mind immediately. I can now function normally. I usually cannot understand things for some reason, but now I can. I am so grateful that the Devil is gone from around me and that I can function normally.
I couldn't do much about what happened. I didn't have any ability after a while to think.
With all of that said, I am not claiming to be a servant just to be interesting. I am not claiming to be some Davidic Servant however either, this is different than that Servant. I went through so much Hell that it's impossible to write all of it down, but those areas are healed by God. I am safe from the Devil.
I will share with you why I shared these things because people will not understand. I share these things because I want people to know I have experienced miracles that are real. I have also been through too much to say that I am pretending with you. You can ask anyone around me and they'll say "yes she paced all the time," and that's all I'll say.
Now that that is out of the way I will share a little bit about myself.
I will share a few qualities about myself later, but I will share a story with you so that you know who I am.
I used to know Ranelle Wallace. Ranelle was my friend. She was my roommate at one point actually and this story will help you know who I am and who this person is. Most people yell, scream and do things they shouldn't in relationships. For over a year with this person I never yelled, screamed or did anything that I shouldn't in this relationship. This is true. I never argued either. I have not argued with someone all my life. I may have a different opinion, but arguing is different than that. I helped this person everyday. Everyday she talked to me. I said to her "tell me your story. Tell me anything." This woman claims to have no friends. So I was going to be her friend. So I said "here let me help you and let me be your friend." I am a young woman, Ranelle is older. I do not share that for no reason, she is older and supposedly wiser than me. She is supposed to be someone to look up to. She had created the stop drop and roll foundation. She created a book about her NDE. She supposedly had spiritual experiences often and so I said "this is the kind of person that I want to meet." So I stayed with her in her house for over 9 months. I stayed for quite some time. I helped her with groceries and getting food sometimes. Other times I drove her around for fun to help her feel better. I listened to her talk for over 7 hours sometimes daily. I heard all of these stories and all of the pain she had gone through. I was very empathetic and hugged her often. I said "you're my best friend!" and then I would tell her how much I loved her. She really was my best friend. I even helped this woman move her entire house because she didn't have any friends who would help her. I had to hurry too to get her out because of someone kicking her out. I moved all of her stuff and paid for the storage for over 6 months so that she didn't lose her stuff. I said to Ranelle "don't worry about it, I care about you, you don't need to repay me." and she didn't and I was grateful she didn't. I was not angry at all for helping this person. I was always happy with this person in my head even when she was unhappy. I was not unkind to her ever. I was listening intently and trying to help her feel better. I didn't want her to feel bad ever so I tried to help her a lot. She needed so much assistance I even thought of being a stay at home helper in some way so that she could get the help she needed.
Any comments on this forum from me before I was told I was a Servant is not something that is accurate. I was doing my best but I couldn't actually tell you about certain areas and I relied on scriptures and my own opinion. I did try my best always to follow something that said "try your best to answer but don't worry about it, just answer well." And that's what I did. However, now that I am with God, and He speaks to me, I actually can tell you the actual answer to many of life's questions. I am just starting out and I will let you know when I can answer most questions about life. However, I don't know much but God said to me with a physical voice "this is what you need to write, I will tell you what to write word for word," and this is a word for word post from God Himself. I don't lie about my experience.
I know people will have questions eventually. Like "is God going to come and burn the earth?" and other questions I do know the answer to, but most questions I don't know answers to at this point because I am being helped by God right now to be prepared to start receiving answers.
I do not know enough to answer your questions yet. However, that will come.
I can however share basics that I understand and I will post several posts and link them into this post.
The Davidic Servant is not the role I'm claiming. This role does not exist. However, most people will argue about that because it's in scriptures. However, I need to say one thing about scriptures, you do not know who wrote these scriptures. You do not. However, you would not read them if you knew who wrote them. Scriptures have been edited and even written in many chapters by wicked men who wish to harm people in the end.
That doesn't make sense if you feel the spirit with the words of the scriptures. However, tiny insignificant emotions and even bigger emotions are not an example of the spirit. Sometimes you do feel truth and I won't deny that however, people do not have discernment. Discernment means this if you can tell me if you know the truth fully that something in the scriptures is true or not. Such as can you tell me if this is true or not "Grace keeps you from going to Hell" or "works and grace keep you from Hell," or even "repent in a temple that the Servant builds and you will be in Heaven." Which one is true? You cannot tell me you know the real answer because you have discernment. Discernment is different than knowing right from wrong sometimes. If you knew all the right and wrong answers in life you would be a prophet. You don't even know if your neighbor is good or bad but many claim to say they know the truth through their emotions.
If you know the difference between those questions, why? Is it because you had God Himself come to you and tell you the answer? or did someone say that it was true to you and you felt small emotions or large emotions about the answer? If it's the second one, you do not have discernment like a prophet. This is true. I am not saying this to make people wonder about me, I am saying this because people don't have discernment actually. I thought they did, but God told me what was going on. He said this is happening "people claim to know the truth when they haven't even had a dream, vision, or even visitation from God Himself and they claim to know what is true or not. They claim to know that there is some sort of magical ability they have where they can tell if someone is bad, or something is bad, or even doctrine that is bad. Most people argue on points of doctrine because they do not have discernment. They also do not have a holy spirit guiding them. This is true. If the holy spirit was guiding all people in their journey to Heaven then why are there so many different opinions? Opinions sound good look good and feel good sometimes and this doesn't mean this is the holy spirit. The holy spirit if people had it there would be no questions about life, doctrine or anything in general. There would be no fighting about doctrinal issues. People claim they have this spirit when they don't. But they don't understand why there is not holy ghost. It's because the body prompts you. God created your body. Your body is prompting you to do things. Sometimes it's random, sometimes it's interesting, and other times it's spiritual. This is because the body is to help you repent. When people have random ideas or even spiritual ideas, it's not from God Himself, it's from yourself. You do not have spiritual promptings from God. Why? Because he needs you to repent. If he said anything to you you would not repent. He cannot talk to you. People do not know this about life. Because once in a while they do have a holy spirit experience. They feel prompted to help someone and it works somehow. This is not the holy spirit. If you had one it would be like this "I feel prompted to say these words, and these things to this specific person right now, but also I know their future, I know their past, I know who they are and I understand what would happen if I said something the wrong way in this moment. I know who they are and what they've done. I know all about this person." This is not what happens when people help others, they feel prompted to say certain things because they feel it in their heart, but they don't feel it as if a Holy Spirit was helping.
Your promptings sometimes don't make sense, and it's not because you are not understanding the holy spirit. It's because your body prompts you with random things sometimes. "Go clean this part of the house," and that is all it says to you sometimes. And it doesn't make sense that a Holy Spirit is teaching you this. If you think you have a holy ghost, ask him right now to tell you the actual answer to "what is my life going to be like in 5 years?" and if you get a vague answer it's obviously not the spirit, but if you do not get any answer at all, this is obviously not the holy spirit. I would guide people on this earth always if I had the choice. You do not get guidance when you want for various reasons, but I do not share those reasons at this point in this message. The holy ghost is not a person in the God Head. This is true. He is not even someone that exists. The reason they wrote this in the bible is to make people have power over one another. If you said "I know that this is true, the holy ghost told me so." then you can say whatever you want and be right. However, people don't know about this for a reason. They wrote some parts so well that you would not wonder about the bible or other scriptures. Joseph Smith Jr. is someone who wrote scriptures, but the scriptures he wrote were different. They edited everything. Someone evil did.
Promptings from the Holy Ghost are actually promptings from your body that God created for you to have. That is why some promptings are random, and others are not answered very clearly. Sometimes you do get some ideas that are fantastic and the body can do this. This is true. If you have incredible emotions about something, this can happen with the body. It doesn't feel like you for a reason. It's not. However, the body prompts you because God blessed you.
When someone claims to know the spirit, and know that there is a holy ghost, this is only because they have feelings, not visions, not dreams, not God telling them personally that there is a holy ghost. If there was a holy ghost and everyone had him, you would never wonder what to do in life, who people really are, and who you really are. If you have wondered these questions you do no have a holy spirit guiding you "what is life like for those who go to Hell?"
"what is life like for those who go to Heaven?"
"what is life like for those who are really evil like Hitler in Hell?"
"What is life like for those who were more normal in Hell?"
I know the answers to these questions, not because of some feeling I had but because of a voice that God has been speaking with this entire time with me.
People do not know what happens in Hell for a reason. They also do not know truth about it in various areas. The doctrine in the LDS church about the people who die and go to Hell is not true. This church has so much incorrect doctrine it will be surprising. If someone knows the scriptures very well and argues about this it's not because they have a holy spirit guiding them, it's an opinion guiding them.
If there is a Servant or Prophet like person then all of these questions and questions like "why am I here?" "what is the point of life sometimes?" or even "what is the meaning of life?" these questions are answered with prophets and servants. Servants are not people who are "serving people". Servants are people like prophets who go around teaching people the truth. I am a Servant.
The opinions of others are not accurate usually, however, there can be accurate opinion. Opinion however is not truth from God.
People do not understand that they have only opinions. However, that will be discussed in a different post.
Now that I have discussed the fact that there is not discernment, I will speak about being a Servant.
People might claim they have a holy spirit and discernment about me. They might say "well that's not in the scriptures," or even "you're wrong I know that is not true somehow," and those comments are opinions. I am a Servant. I am not a fake or a liar but I'm also not deceived.
Now that I've commented all that I can about that area, I will say this much about who I am.
I am a Servant.
This is true.
What will happen in the future with me will be revealed a little. I will have angels to come and visit me, I will see them not just hear them, I will even take pictures at this point to prove it, but honestly my miracles will also prove that I am a Servant. I will have miracles happen in my life and I will show people the power God can give me. My angels will walk with me everywhere I go. I won't be without an angel ever. They will teach me, guide me and protect me. I will not have any problems with my church in general, but if people want to attack my church they won't be able to.
I also want to say that I have had miracles already. I can sit down when I want. Usually I have to stand and pace all day long without any sitting. This happened due to a devil and medicine that others forced me on. This medicine was for mental issues. I will discuss how I am not an insane person. However, first off I will share my miracles.
Usually I pace for hours and hours and hours everyday all day long because the medicine they gave me because I believed in God and a Devil and also because of spiritual attacks. I believed in this and told the wrong person. However, I was never a danger and never a problem. After they gave me the medicine the Devil cursed it so badly that it made me pace all day long. This medicine was terrible. I would pace so often I cried in my head to God "Please save me! I can't stop walking! I can't sit down when I want!" after a few years it's torture. You get to pace all day and then somehow miraculously go to sleep and then wake up and then pace. If I had not been blessed by God I would not have been able to sleep. However, what happened was this, I couldn't stop pacing one day and I said "I have to sit down, I HAVE TO!" and I sat down for 3 seconds and got up, and then sat back down again and got up and sat again, and got up. I couldn't control anything about my body because the Devil said "No, you are standing up! You cannot sit down!" and so I stood and I fought the Devil about this because I had to sit. So I tried over and over and over again to sit. But the Devil controlled my body so badly that I couldn't sit even for 5 forced minutes. I was not allowed to sit. My feet have sharp pain in them sometimes because of all of the standing I had to do.
I sat down one day and said to myself "finally, I get to sit!" and this was so relieving that I bawled my eyes out for over 1 hour. This was the day that God came and sat me down and I could sit for an hour. He came and sat me down and said "You're safe now, the Devil is gone. I saved you. Sit so that you feel better." and I cried out "help help help help help" the moment I stood up again because of how torturous this situation was. God helped me sit again.
Now that I have been healed fully, I can sit for as long as possible. All day even. I usually cannot sit even 5 minutes without extreme pain mentally. So when you cannot ever sit down for 10 minutes after work standing all day, you go nuts. You cannot stand that long and not have a break, and then you cannot stand that long and not be tortured after a while.
That is what happened. I will share only one other miracle.
My brain was completely destroyed by the Devil. He said this to me "I will destroy your brain so you cannot think anymore." This is frightening to think about but it did happen. My brain could not understand 2+2 at all. My ability to hear people and understand them when they spoke to me was gone. I watched people talk to each other and I never understood what they were saying. I went into mental retardation because of the Devil. I couldn't even understand anything that I was saying to others, sometimes it came out wrong and other times I was blessed by God to just be able to say something to someone so they didn't worry about me in the wrong way. When people know this about my story they will wonder how I started to write things again. So for quite some time God has been healing my mind. He has been healing it so that I can function again. I am not writing this post. God is telling me what to write and what words to say specifically to this audience. I am no longer mentally retarded. I was so mentally retarded that I couldn't even function in daily life. I couldn't take a shower, I couldn't figure out how to dress myself, I couldn't figure out what to do in social situations at all. God came and when he healed my ability to sit down he came and healed my mind immediately. I can now function normally. I usually cannot understand things for some reason, but now I can. I am so grateful that the Devil is gone from around me and that I can function normally.
I couldn't do much about what happened. I didn't have any ability after a while to think.
With all of that said, I am not claiming to be a servant just to be interesting. I am not claiming to be some Davidic Servant however either, this is different than that Servant. I went through so much Hell that it's impossible to write all of it down, but those areas are healed by God. I am safe from the Devil.
I will share with you why I shared these things because people will not understand. I share these things because I want people to know I have experienced miracles that are real. I have also been through too much to say that I am pretending with you. You can ask anyone around me and they'll say "yes she paced all the time," and that's all I'll say.
Now that that is out of the way I will share a little bit about myself.
I will share a few qualities about myself later, but I will share a story with you so that you know who I am.
I used to know Ranelle Wallace. Ranelle was my friend. She was my roommate at one point actually and this story will help you know who I am and who this person is. Most people yell, scream and do things they shouldn't in relationships. For over a year with this person I never yelled, screamed or did anything that I shouldn't in this relationship. This is true. I never argued either. I have not argued with someone all my life. I may have a different opinion, but arguing is different than that. I helped this person everyday. Everyday she talked to me. I said to her "tell me your story. Tell me anything." This woman claims to have no friends. So I was going to be her friend. So I said "here let me help you and let me be your friend." I am a young woman, Ranelle is older. I do not share that for no reason, she is older and supposedly wiser than me. She is supposed to be someone to look up to. She had created the stop drop and roll foundation. She created a book about her NDE. She supposedly had spiritual experiences often and so I said "this is the kind of person that I want to meet." So I stayed with her in her house for over 9 months. I stayed for quite some time. I helped her with groceries and getting food sometimes. Other times I drove her around for fun to help her feel better. I listened to her talk for over 7 hours sometimes daily. I heard all of these stories and all of the pain she had gone through. I was very empathetic and hugged her often. I said "you're my best friend!" and then I would tell her how much I loved her. She really was my best friend. I even helped this woman move her entire house because she didn't have any friends who would help her. I had to hurry too to get her out because of someone kicking her out. I moved all of her stuff and paid for the storage for over 6 months so that she didn't lose her stuff. I said to Ranelle "don't worry about it, I care about you, you don't need to repay me." and she didn't and I was grateful she didn't. I was not angry at all for helping this person. I was always happy with this person in my head even when she was unhappy. I was not unkind to her ever. I was listening intently and trying to help her feel better. I didn't want her to feel bad ever so I tried to help her a lot. She needed so much assistance I even thought of being a stay at home helper in some way so that she could get the help she needed.
