LDS Freedom Forum

I am a convert to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and have been so for 5 years this November. I instantly fell in love with the Church because I read the Book of Mormon and read it in a few weeks as well I read Doctrine and Covenants and felt the same. I felt the Spirit of God, and I felt revelation pouring out from heaven as I read it. I felt as close to God as I ever have felt in my life since then. I really love the restored gospel.

After a year of being in the Church I decided to serve a full time mission. I loved it. There were difficult moments but overall it was a great experience and one that I will never forget.

However, ever since being back (it's been a little more over a year) I have not felt spiritually edified at Church or overall. At first I took the TBM approach and chided myself for not reading enough, praying enough, being reverent enough etc. But then my way of thinking changed. I realized that maybe my approach was not wrong rather I was trying to be fulfilled through something (the Church) that was no longer inspired and led by God.

I came to this conclusion on my own. I felt the Church had become less of a place to receive revelation but rather a place to receive instruction and a place where we were told what to do. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone.

Anyway I then was introduced to Denver Snuffer and I've read his lectures and well I now feel like there is hope. I am striving for experiences with the Savior.

I am excited to be here!

Do your very own book report on the words of Jesus Christ, of all the things he said to do, and all the ways he said to be like, and all the things he said to know. Start with Matthew Mark Luke John and 3rd Nephi and the D&C.

That will be a wonderful way to get inspiration beyond your greatest hopes and dreams possible without this knowledge, I can truly promise to you having done this book report many years ago myself. ♡

arodriguez, please please do not become a DS follower. It will lead you away from Christ. It will lead you in the opposite direction of all the covenants you have made. He has no authority. It's very enticing to want to see the Lord, but your desire can lead you to be deceived. The adversary can imitate everything. He can make you feel love and light, yet it is a fake. Hold to the Iron Rod. Go to the temple often and pray. Forget yourself and start serving others. Pray to the Lord for strength to fight these feelings. You most likely experienced spiritual highs on your mission and are disappointed that you don't feel that way now. But if you continue to serve, you will find a sublime joy. I am begging you to stay strong and don't give up on the Church. Don't give in to selfish desires, rather look outward and serve your brothers and sisters. The Lord has asked us to "endure" to the end. That means even when you have a spiritual lull. Do not be enticed by the adversary. If you want a "sign", he will give you one and he'll make it wonderful (for a time, until he has wrapped you in flaxen cords).

Follow Julie Rowe instead.

arod - happy to have you aboard. You are no longer on steroids, right? ;)
(first rule of the forum, you can say virtually anything tasteless or of ill repute if you put a winky face after it. It's like repenting as you sin.)

Welcome. WARNING: There are many here ready and willing to tell you that you are deceived, going astray, selfish, in a spiritual lull, etc etc. Oh well, I guess you already figured that out. Thanks Kathyn.

But, there are also many here who won't do that. Suggestion: Request access to the Heavenly Gift sub-forum. You will find like-minded persons there.

You're so very welcome, Ajax. :ymdevil:

Thanks for the welcome guys!

I am currently reading "Conversing with the Lord through the Veil" and I have never felt more excited and with more desire to do right in a long time!

sen6b wrote:An even better read is just to continue reading the scriptures over and over. Anyone who disagrees with that has a serious problem.

Apples are better than oranges. We should stay away from oranges? ;)

I think you missed my point :p