Melissa, you don't have to study all the 'he said she said' stuff in journals or all the vile accusations that abound about Joseph. All you have to do to gain a sure testimony about whether polygamy is right or not is just study the words of Christ, first and foremost, and try to really live them, (meaning really try to gain charity by truly loving and serving your husband most of all, which you probably are already) and also study the scriptures and teachings that Joseph published while he as alive and thus could sign his name to things. That would be the BoM and the original D&C (1835 edition). By studying what those scriptures say and the New Testament (Christ's teachings and his Apostle's teachings) about polygamy, coupled with pondering and likening those scriptures to you and also prayer, God will begin to unfold the truth about it all without reading a single journal, rumor or history book.Melissa wrote:
Yes, and I don't feel like I should have to dive into some perilous debate through journals and accounts and he said she said to know if polygamy is something that I should ever have to worry about. I could go through it all but feel that I will not fair too well. The early history information from journals and such really are not readily available for regular saints. I really wish that the church could set this all straight and have some answers so that I don't have to go through everyones journals.
Do what Joseph did when all the people around him taught and had opposite beliefs and made him confused about things.
And if your testimony is based in Christ and not fallible men, then you will not fear seeking for truth, and the knowledge you gain will only make you fell relieved, and filled with joy and peace for you will gain a testimony of how much Heavenly Father loves and protects his daughters from just such things as polygamy, and how he expects men to have complete faithfulness and exclusive true love for their 1 wife for their whole life and all eternity. The adversary gives us the spirit of fear so we don't want to seek the truth, but if we have the Spirit, truth is always wonderful and enlightening and brings us peace and freedom from the falsehoods of men that thwart our progression and happiness.
We must have faith and confidence in Christ and in his words 1st and foremost, he must always be our foundation, and we should never listen to anyone who preaches or practices contrary to him, then it doesn't matter who or how many members or leaders may be wrong or go astray, for our testimony of the Gospel is based on Christ not on any mortal man or church.
Not all Joseph's published teachings are in the D&C. He published many teachings against polygamy in the 'Times and Season's' Newspaper in Nauvoo, (which he then sent out to the worldwide Saints, kind of like we do with our 'Ensign') which you can trust really came from him. I would suggest reading the things he taught the Saints in Nauvoo about polygamy, for he knew we would read his words too and they were for us also. If you need more references to find those published writings to the Church, I can get you those.