15 years ago Satan came into my family and broke it up by evil, Native black magic, choices, darkness, chaos, sickness, etc... I went on a journey to restore my family. A lonely journey, but one where I came to be with (literally at one point) and understand the Lord. In 2019 the Lord came to me and said it was time to begin the gathering and I was to get my act together. The Lord came into my life, and had done such it turns out for a few years. But, during that journey the threads of gospel truth led me down many, many dead end paths.
I had no idea why I was chosen to suffer such pain. BTW the Lord had brought me a beautiful and wonder new wife, but by family was still broken and my eternal companion in gross darkness. At one point the Lord made it clear that I could attain eternal life and have celestial offspring. A blessing for sure, but following LDS (and Christian) teachings this meant that almost all of my children would be consigned to hell (1/3) or telestial glory (90%) where I could not come. Even the 6% or so in Terrestrial would only be brief visits and only a few (Jesus said ".... few there be that find it") would return home. Was it worth it? Was it worth losing all your children and having the love of a few? I fretted for a very long time. then one day god commanded me to reread the KFD, again (perhaps 5th time). I saw it there. JS taught that all of god's children come home. And that almost none (few per Jesus) do after this life. So, the path of eternal progression must be much, much more than the LDS Plan of Salvation.
At that point the Lord led me to LDS FF, of all places. Not sure how. I never posted and eventually got locked out. But he led me to Alaris' discussion of MMP. Not that I agree with all the details of all the blog. But, it was laden with truth a the Holy Ghost began to use it to expound some of the Mysteries of the Kingdom. I studied it for months, not just the blog but the links, the KFD, Joseph's other teachings and where ever the HG led me. From there I learned about eternal progression, MMP, this earthly telestial sphere, heavenly mother and heavenly father. Most of all I learned who I am, why I am here. And lastly, one day as I was pondering, it became clear to me that I had some how transcended the gap, at least as far as eternal progression was concerned, and I screamed in my home that "all truth is surely circumscribed into one great whole!"
BTW I learned that I'm no longer scared of being like my heavenly father for fear of losing my offspring. Now, I am in fear for failing them in the long, long, relentless journey of bringing them ALL back home. But alas, I know my objective
Why do I say this here? To thank Alaris for his efforts. Perhaps the forum and the web users all react (mostly anyway) with distain, and anger, but the writing were crucial to my coming to God.
BTW, after all the &!@$#%$@ I do about many folks on LDS FF that are haters, antis (I mean anti-LDS, anti-common sense, anti-science), and negative folks, I love LDS FF. I just wish it had the doctrinal discussions that used to be here, and less open conspiracy. The entire damned world is a conspiracy. I can read that anywhere, here on LDS FF, I would like to again discover truths. And truths (for me anyway), can only be discovered when written in positive ways, agree or disagree in positive ways and then and ONLY then can the HG manifest the truth or partial truth and lead to full truth. IMO.
thanks Alaris